I will start by saying that I am the h a p p i e s t I have been in a really long time. Not only am I at at college that I actually like, and works well with working nearly every day, but I care so much more about everything. When I stay busy with the things that improve my life, it's easier to care. I don't focuss on my problems anymore, only my solutions. Things happen. It takes stength and ability to get through them. After everything, I know I have both and I have finally realized I can get through anything and everything. If you only rely on yourself, you cannot be let down.
Usually guys bring me down, way down. Not this time. After telling myself and everyone around me that I was going to be single until I graduated college, I actually met a nice guy that is perfect for me in every way. I have never thought anyone was so perfect before and I almost feel stupid saying it. I know no one will believe me and I know most won't even care, therefor I do not care. All I know is that he takes care of me even though I can take care of myself. He makes me laugh even though I can make myself laugh. He wants to pay for my stuff even though I make my own money. If you care about me, just be happy for me. I won't go into too much sappy stuff because that's not really my style. Just know he is a great match for me.
I haven't "blogged" in quite some time because until the last month or so I haven't had anything positive to write about. Maybe I did, but just couldn't focus on it. I love myself now; for once (not literally) I love my life. Everything about it. Sure, girls still try to get me down but that just shows me they are threatened by my stability or maybe they just aren't happy with their own lives and I hope they learn to get past it. I am so proud of the path I am on at this point in my life and there is no turning back.. ever. I've come too far. My mind hasn't been influenced in any way other than by my own thoughts in a long time. This may be too much info but I haven't smoked or drank and I don't plan on it, either. I might drink a little with family or friends but not to get drunk. I feel like I have completely turned my life around in such a short time and I don't even remember the last time I was proud of myself.
I'm not even going to get into the whole Jake relationship stuff because I have nothing positive to say about what happened. So, I'll leave it at this:
Life is what you make it. Complaints are your own fault.
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