Brickhouse

I really hope I get the job at Brickhouse tomorrow.  My friend Shelby Farmer that works there seems to think I will.  Tomorrow is my "audition" following my interview last Friday.  I have to wear shorts and tennis shoes and put on the Brickhouse uniform shirt and talk to them so they know I'm comfortable with what I could be doing.  I really want / need this job.  It seems like the perfect place for me to work.

Steve and I took his bike for a joyride down Bardstown road today and it was a great way to take advantage of our warmish weather.  We're taking it to class in the morning too but grabbing the 350z for my audition so I can drive up in style and won't have helmet hair, lol.

Wish me luck!

<3

unappreciated.

So, yesterday I drove 25 minutes to work as usual (keep in mind I pick up a shift and my manager approved it) and when I get there Brad tells me that I can't work until I talk to Chris, the owner and he wasn't there so I had to drive back tomorrow.  So I drove back today and Chris read me an email some lady wrote about me and said she felt "rushed" and that I was "put off" by the questions they asked and I didn't come back to check on them.  How the hell do they feel rushed and also feel that I didn't come by enough, at the same time?  So guess what, after my 3 long years of being Outback's bitch, working in every position possible, and never having any problems with anyone, Chris fired me on the spot.  Didn't even give me time to find another job.  I thought he cared about me just a little since we formed a relationship over the years, but I guess not.  He should know me better than that.  I'm so upset and confused why/how I could possibly get fired my first week serving when I didn't even do anything wrong.  I don't even know what to say I just feel so unappreciated for all my time I have given them since I work every single day there. Well, I used to.  I hope he realizes the huge mistake me made.  I guess they don't care though.  That's just $2.18 an hour they don't have to pay one person.  Nice being your slave for nothing in return.

happy happy happy

I am so happy with my life right now and it seems too good to be true.  I am very thankful for all the good I have been seeing lately and especially for my great luck with work and my amazing boyfriend.  Why can't thankful be enough emotion for my brain? Why must I look for things wrong?

I feel like I am just so used to life shitting on me all the time, therefore when everything goes great, it's almost unbelievable.  I am definitely "in-like" as lame as that sounds.

priceless.

Current Plans

This is lame but "Free Tan Week" starts tomorrow and I'm really excited! lol I haven't been to the tanning bed in a year or so and I bet it is going to feel sooooo good :) Next weekend or early next week I'm going to get all of my tattoos touched up so they have time to heal before spring!  Plans excite me... haha but really, they do.

I also decided today that I am GOING to buy a white (2006?) Scion TC 5 speed.  It would be great if it came with tinted windows but if not I'll have them tinted! I would loveeeeeee that car and would take great care of it. Ughhh I can't wait.  I was planning to buy the iPhone 4 soon but I'll probably just wait until the new one comes out.  Should be like 5 months.  Hopefully my phone doesn't break before then because it already sucks....

Oh well! Either way, I love my life.

Also, need to get Steve a Valentine's Day present soon! <3 I think we're going to Cheesecake Factory (my favorite) !!!!! YAYYY

Some creep made a FAKE MYSPACE using my pictures and making up stuff about me trying to talk to young guys.  WOW.

Please, report this if you know how.
Thank you.

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Life as of now

I will start by saying that I am the h a p p i e s t I have been in a really long time.  Not only am I at at college that I actually like, and works well with working nearly every day, but I care so much more about everything.  When I stay busy with the things that improve my life, it's easier to care.  I don't focuss on my problems anymore, only my solutions.  Things happen.  It takes stength and ability to get through them.  After everything, I know I have both and I have finally realized I can get through anything and everything.  If you only rely on yourself, you cannot be let down.

Usually guys bring me down, way down.  Not this time.  After telling myself and everyone around me that I was going to be single until I graduated college, I actually met a nice guy that is perfect for me in every way.  I have never thought anyone was so perfect before and I almost feel stupid saying it.  I know no one will believe me and I know most won't even care, therefor I do not care.  All I know is that he takes care of me even though I can take care of myself.  He makes me laugh even though I can make myself laugh.  He wants to pay for my stuff even though I make my own money.  If you care about me, just be happy for me.  I won't go into too much sappy stuff because that's not really my style.  Just know he is a great match for me.

I haven't "blogged" in quite some time because until the last month or so I haven't had anything positive to write about.  Maybe I did, but just couldn't focus on it.  I love myself now; for once (not literally) I love my life.  Everything about it.  Sure, girls still try to get me down but that just shows me they are threatened by my stability or maybe they just aren't happy with their own lives and I hope they learn to get past it.  I am so proud of the path I am on at this point in my life and there is no turning back.. ever. I've come too far.  My mind hasn't been influenced in any way other than by my own thoughts in a long time.  This may be too much info but I haven't smoked or drank and I don't plan on it, either.  I might drink a little with family or friends but not to get drunk.  I feel like I have completely turned my life around in such a short time and I don't even remember the last time I was proud of myself.

I'm not even going to get into the whole Jake relationship stuff because I have nothing positive to say about what happened.  So, I'll leave it at this:

Life is what you make it.  Complaints are your own fault.